Weight, Weight, Don't Tell Me (pt.1)

I have to admit that I have a HUGE lazy streak. If there is an easy way to get around doing actual work, I already know about it.

( as I am writing this, I am staring open mouth at Gilmore Girls instead of actually writing… Why is Rory so damn cute??!?!? I wish I was that cute… I wish I could work like Lorelai… ugh!!!!)

It has gotten me into trouble on more than one occasion.

Sadly my laziness has given me the wonderful gift of obesity… I hate that word so much. Not just your regular, run of the mill obesity, no, the full on size 26 morbid obesity!!! I actually had hit around 312 at one point. I hate this so much. I like curves, but my curves are lumps, horrid bulging lumps.

I know enough not to go on fad diets, starvation or eating once every 15 minutes… Sucked bad…

First time I tried to starve myself it lasted about an hour…. 

The next time I lasted a little over 20 hours…

SO anyway…

Saw my doctor for other various health problems and he has been saying that Medicaid will soon be making people who don’t loose enough weight to get weight loss surgery.

I thought about it long and hard… Consulted with Mom, Dad, Justin, even tried to ask Mark (at 3 he is understandably not concerned.)

Seems that Monday I have my first meeting, I can’t wait!

UPDATE: my insurance just dropped me…. Damnit… I can't wait to be on the phone for hours...

Here is a squirrel I stole from Reddit...

Quickie Post

Threw my back out in a bad way over the weekend.
Saw the doctor on Wednesday and he got me some pain killers and muscle relaxers. It is helping a bit....
but


WHERE DID THURSDAY GO???? I have no recollection of it...

So here is hoping that this will go away soon. I was hoping to take Mark to the zoo Sunday, but that doesn't look like it is going to happen.

Doctor told me to rest as much as possible, but then I am getting yelled at for not helping around the house... Are you serious???

Wish me luck! And have a beautiful weekend!!!

A Small-ish Setback

Hi, Sorry I haven't updated recently like I said I would. I have actually been serving on a jury and it looks like it will be going into tomorrow at the very least...

Over the weekend the food monster won, several times, even once when he wasn't even trying.. That bastard!!!

I managed to eat a WHOLE chipotle burrito... double meat, sour cream guacamole, cheese... I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT!!!(dont judge me) Then sadly I have been feeling tummy sick since then. And a whole bunch of crap...

Ugh. It was a setback, not gonna lie... But today I think I made up for it.

Date:	April 16th, 2012
Meal	Item Brand	Item Name	Your Servings	Your Total Calories
breakfast	Sabra	Hummus With Roasted Pine Nuts	2	140
breakfast	Joseph's	Pita Bread	1.5	180
lunch	Philadelphia	Garden Vegetable Cream Cheese	1	90
lunch	Kraft	Mozzarella	0.25	20
lunch		Pita	0.5	72.5
lunch	Hillshire Farm	Rotisserie Chicken	1	50
dinner		Broccoli And Beef	1	150
dinner	H-E-B	White Meat Chicken And Vegetable Mini Egg Rolls	2	340
Total:
				Calories
				1042.5

Not too bad! almost met my goal of 1000 per day, and kept it fairly balanced. I think, at least...

No soda again today!!! Did use my strawberry watermelon MIO but not too shabby!




I was so surprised at how yummy the hummus was! Usually I think "I am eating skinny food, this is what normal girls do! You want to be normal, right? THEN SHUT UP AND EAT IT BITCH!!!" and I smile and pretend that I like it. So yummy with warm Pita bread... I am actually looking forward to more tomorrow!

Shit forgot my yougurt and granola, hold on...

okay that added 370, so I am st 1413 calories consumed today... well that fucked me over a bit...

It's okay, tomorrow is a new day and I am gonna kick some ass!!!

Have an awesome day!!!


Here is a funny!

GRRRR!!

I am shakey and angry! and WEAK! I have suddenly lost all motivation and energy... I think I just applesauce crashed...

Now I know why skinny bitches are bitchy, they are always mad from not eating!

I used to love this feeling of hunger/emptiness, but am kind of hating it right now...

Still have to do wii and ea active... GRRRRRR!

Livestrong!!!

First of all,
I AM PISSED OFF!!!
Some assmonkey decided to stick a screwdriver or something sharp in my mom's tire!!! Thanks a lot! Seriously, if you are that bored go masturbate or something! Why take part in senseless vandalism???

I guess this is what we get for going to Wal-Mart...

/end rant



In other news,
Thanks to my ADHD and Depression medications, I have found the motivation to tell my fat to go to hell!
I hope it keeps. The longest I was ever on a fitness kick was two months. Then there was a gradual slowdown, and then not really giving a shit.

I am again using LIVESTRONG.com and their myPlate food diary!
Here is my profile!

Yesterday  I forgot to eat! Thank goodness I had my emergency salad in the fridge!

Busted out my WII Fit and gonna get my move on!  Wish me luck!!!

Daily Noms 4-2-2012

Breakfast was yoghurt!  

It is greek with blueberries on the bottom! It was yummy, but it didn’t fill me up. Tummy was rumbling until noon rolled around.

Since I was in crazy starvation mode, I had some beef and broccoli fried rice. Sadly it was much too salty, and I didn’t eat too much of it. I ate the beef and broccoli and egg, but that was all I cared to put in my mouth. I haven't had any pre-made food in a long time, and things are tasting weird...

I broke down after Mark got home and had four oreos…

Then at 8pm, I had four mini-butterfingers…

I didn’t eat much... I kind of ate crap…

Well tomorrow is a new day and I know I will do good! (I want eggs, bad!)

Does anyone here struggle with eating yummy, yummy things? I find that I have to keep myself occupied in order to not eat. If I get bored I NOM, and that is NOT good. Any tips?

Thank you for your time!

Stay beautiful!!!

Pink and Blue Makeup!

I was bored and I know that I have to update WAAYY more often. So here is my first makeup video!

This is just a fun spring look that kind of matched my shirt. I am by no means an expert but I love to play with makeup and have fun!

I adore how big this made my eyes look! I have hooded eyes, so I think I can get away with crazy colors a but easier than others.

End result was not bad!

It was raining in my room, honest!

Products used for this Video:

·         Sephora Perfecting Cover Foundation( #10)
·         e.l.f. Complexion Perfection Pallet
·         e.l.f. Clarifying Pressed Powder (ivory)
·         Urban Decay Primer Potion
·         Urban Decay Roller Girl Pallet (Woodstock)
·         Urban Decay Book Of Shadows IV (Gravity, Midnight Cowgirl, Zephyr)
·         Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-On Eye Pencil (Demolition)
·         Benefit Cosmetic s “they’re REAL” Mascara
·         Revlon Lip Butter (070 Cherry Tart, 005 Sugar Frosting)