GRRRR!!

I am shakey and angry! and WEAK! I have suddenly lost all motivation and energy... I think I just applesauce crashed...

Now I know why skinny bitches are bitchy, they are always mad from not eating!

I used to love this feeling of hunger/emptiness, but am kind of hating it right now...

Still have to do wii and ea active... GRRRRRR!

Livestrong!!!

First of all,
I AM PISSED OFF!!!
Some assmonkey decided to stick a screwdriver or something sharp in my mom's tire!!! Thanks a lot! Seriously, if you are that bored go masturbate or something! Why take part in senseless vandalism???

I guess this is what we get for going to Wal-Mart...

/end rant



In other news,
Thanks to my ADHD and Depression medications, I have found the motivation to tell my fat to go to hell!
I hope it keeps. The longest I was ever on a fitness kick was two months. Then there was a gradual slowdown, and then not really giving a shit.

I am again using LIVESTRONG.com and their myPlate food diary!
Here is my profile!

Yesterday  I forgot to eat! Thank goodness I had my emergency salad in the fridge!

Busted out my WII Fit and gonna get my move on!  Wish me luck!!!

Daily Noms 4-2-2012

Breakfast was yoghurt!  

It is greek with blueberries on the bottom! It was yummy, but it didn’t fill me up. Tummy was rumbling until noon rolled around.

Since I was in crazy starvation mode, I had some beef and broccoli fried rice. Sadly it was much too salty, and I didn’t eat too much of it. I ate the beef and broccoli and egg, but that was all I cared to put in my mouth. I haven't had any pre-made food in a long time, and things are tasting weird...

I broke down after Mark got home and had four oreos…

Then at 8pm, I had four mini-butterfingers…

I didn’t eat much... I kind of ate crap…

Well tomorrow is a new day and I know I will do good! (I want eggs, bad!)

Does anyone here struggle with eating yummy, yummy things? I find that I have to keep myself occupied in order to not eat. If I get bored I NOM, and that is NOT good. Any tips?

Thank you for your time!

Stay beautiful!!!

Pink and Blue Makeup!

I was bored and I know that I have to update WAAYY more often. So here is my first makeup video!

This is just a fun spring look that kind of matched my shirt. I am by no means an expert but I love to play with makeup and have fun!

I adore how big this made my eyes look! I have hooded eyes, so I think I can get away with crazy colors a but easier than others.

End result was not bad!

It was raining in my room, honest!

Products used for this Video:

·         Sephora Perfecting Cover Foundation( #10)
·         e.l.f. Complexion Perfection Pallet
·         e.l.f. Clarifying Pressed Powder (ivory)
·         Urban Decay Primer Potion
·         Urban Decay Roller Girl Pallet (Woodstock)
·         Urban Decay Book Of Shadows IV (Gravity, Midnight Cowgirl, Zephyr)
·         Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-On Eye Pencil (Demolition)
·         Benefit Cosmetic s “they’re REAL” Mascara
·         Revlon Lip Butter (070 Cherry Tart, 005 Sugar Frosting) 

A Small Apology

I have not updated and I apologize. I have been a very sad little girl. Depression is a real thing and it is a real bitch…

I was let go from my receptionist job and have been unemployed since then.

As if that weren’t enough of a blow to my self esteem, I have been gaining weight and getting painfully achy…
I have been unmotivated and uninspired.

I have had all the time in the world to get shit done and I have squandered it.

For that I must ask for forgiveness. Though I cannot forgive myself.

A thousand good and horrible ideas have flown in and out of my mind. I have let them go…

OH GOD WHY...

We took a weekend daytrip down to the coast. That was fun but opened a huge can of worms once I saw the pictures. I hated what I saw! I had honestly fancied myself quite good looking in the new dress I had bought. But I really looked like some kind of giant naval pole…

As I am writing this tomorrow is Saturday. Justin and I are going to a party in the evening and I hope I can figure out what to wear so I don’t look like a blimp. (Or feel that I look like a blimp)

Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!!!

Vlog is to begin!!!

This is the blog intro, I think it may need something... But I am not sure what to add.

I made it using whatever the Mac equivalent of power point is. and iMovie...

Any ideas on how to improve it?

Also will be doing a tax return haul soon!

WHEEEEEE!

huggles!!!

EDITED DOWNTON AGAIN?????

Now it is very very possible that i am going crazy-er... BUT did Downton seem to be edited a bit to anyone?

Now i will be honest and admit that i was not paying much attention to the show on Sunday. (cleaned out a lot of my fiance's apartment. His room is so clean now).

The pacing seemed to be VERY off. It didn't have the flow that it seemed to when i watched the originals. But then again that first episode of season 2 had so much to deal with in such a short time..

What do you think?